Monday, November 26, 2012

Graduated!


Hi everyone! (I start this post as if people are reading it. Anyone? Bueller? Bueller?) I hope any Americans reading this had a wonderful Thanksgiving and are fully recovered from turkey comas. I took last week off work to spend time with my family, including my younger brother, who lives in Los Angeles and hasn’t been home for six months. There was much wine, lounging, fishing off the dock (my parents live on a lake), and delicious food. However, with Nutcracker coming up soon, I tried to load up on the veggies — my Spanish costume is really not made to accommodate a food baby.
Speaking of ballet, I have some good news: One week shy of my 5-month surgiversary, I became a physical therapy graduate! I had an appointment last Monday, and according to my PT, everything is looking great. My range of motion (pointing, flexing, demi pliĆ©, releve), measures the same on both feet, and at this point, I probably have around 80 percent of the strength in my right ankle as I do in my left. So, even though I am officially discharged, I still have strength and proprioception exercises to do, and I need to be careful to keep my ankle and calf stretched out. If I don’t stretch for a day or two, I notice a big difference in the tightness of my ankle.

So where does that leave me? Ready to crack some nuts in just 11 days, enjoy a restful break over Christmas, and come back in the New Year ready for a fresh start, which will hopefully involve coming back to pointe class. I’m still working on pointe on my own, and although I still get sore more quickly than I would like, it’s improving slowly but surely. This weekend I noticed that the entire platform of my right pointe shoe is dirty, not just the back edge — after having a chunk of broken bone removed from one’s ankle, that feels like a tremendous accomplishment!

As challenging as 2012 has been in many ways, it’s been a transformative year for me, in no small part due to my surgery and rehab. This might sound like holiday-season cheese, but I truly believe now that this all happened for a reason — I’ve learned and grown so much along the way. Also, I am so thankful to have a wonderful physical therapist and surgeon on this journey with me. I don’t think I would be where I am right now without them. In addition to helping me heal physically, they have given me hope that I frankly didn’t have six months ago. After a year and a half of not getting any answers, I had pretty much resigned myself to the idea that I might have to stop dancing or just be in pain forever.  Now I’m looking forward to many more years of doing what I love — and that makes it all worthwhile.
Merde to all the dancers out there getting ready for Nutcracker or other holiday performances! I’ll post photos from mine, so stay tuned, and as always, thanks for reading!

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Dear Brave Girl

Good morning, everyone! I'm heading out soon for a long day of class and Nutcracker rehearsals (it feels so good to say that!), but I wanted to quickly share a message from one of my favorite websites, Brave Girls Club. Along with fabulous online courses and workshops, they offer free "Daily Truth" e-mails that I always find inspiring. I thought today's was fitting for this blog and beautifully captures the process of recovery. Enjoy!

Dear Brave Girl,

One step forward, one step forward, one step forward. Two steps forward and one step back. Three steps forward, three steps back. Five steps forward, two steps back. No, this is NOT a math lesson. This is LIFE, lovely girl!

Please don't freak out or beat yourself up when you have setbacks. You are not a failure. You did not make bad plans and your steps backward do not determine your worth as a human being.

Sometimes we think we have things figured out, or that we have overcome something, and then it returns to our lives in a different way, leaving us to feel like we have failed in some way. What this actually is, is a beautiful new chance to learn and grow, and it shows up right when we are ready to take it on, even if it seems otherwise.

Remember that life is a process -- all of it. There are lots of finish lines, not just one. We get to start new climbs, new races, every day. Some days we are moving forward effortlessly, some days we are learning to work through life in other ways. It's all good, and it's all necessary. And you are doing a tremendous job. Reach for the gifts found in the setbacks and decide that tomorrow is a brand new day.

Have a fabulous weekend. You are so very loved.

xoxo





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